Diary entry #4

I am 17. Turning 18 in 5 months. I still feel like a child. I mean I haven’t done any one of the grown up stuff. I have never had alcohol. Never had any drugs. Never had a party. Never even been kissed. No girlfriends. No nothing. I even forget my phone and money with me when I go out. But I was fine with it. I was good in studies. I used to be a nerd. I just thought I would get into an IIT or some other top college and get a good job. But now I have all the qualities of a nerd except being good in academics. All my chances of going to a good college are shattered. I got no plans. God help me. Although, I don’t want to but I’ve been feeling hopeless. Please help me God. Get me out of it.