Lockdown [#29]

I am writing this after a very long time. It’s been the longest break till now. So, there is a global pandemic going on right now. It’s been more than two and a half months now. More than 3 million people have been infected and more than a three hundred thousand people have died already. I don’t know how much longer is it gonna last. In order to prevent  it from spreading, schools and colleges have been closed. I thought that this is the chance for me to learn. I will learn a lot about computers. I started with learning typing. Of course I could type before but not the way you are supposed to type. which_fingers

As shown in the above picture, that is the correct way to type. You are supposed to use all the fingers. I was practicing with Type Master software while the free trial lasted i.e. for a week. So far this post has been written using all my fingers. To become a good coder, I should at least learn the correct way to type. It was going good. I started learning Linux and python. I had just started and then I stopped. I started watching anime and then I started reading Manga. I have been reading One Piece and Berserk. So far I have been enjoying Berserk. One Piece….. not so much. I mean I have finished 8 volumes and I still can’t understand why was this the best-selling manga all these years. Maybe it will get better and better with each arc, at least that’s what people say. So after wasting so much time, I today decided to use this time for good. I will continue with Linux, start learning Piano and Adobe Premiere. One bad thing happened too. I broke my flute. I overestimated it’s strength.

I can’t Pee [#28]

[16:55]I am going after the weekend. I stayed at home on Saturday and even Sunday and I am going back now on Monday. It was half day anf most of the students were not going to college today so I also skipped today. The bus was stopped for the past fifteen minutes and now it’s started again. Now I wanted to go the washroom to pee. But it was raining heavily outside.

So, I didn’t go. Too bad. I can now only pee on reaching Chandigarh.

A relief from Harsh Winters [#27]

[20:43] As you can see from the picture above its not that cold now. Maximum temperature went as high as 21°C today and minimum is going to be 7°C. And it’s 13°C right now 13°C used to be the maximum temperature about 2 to 3 days ago and minimum temperature was near freezing point. It went as low as 0.3°C. December 2019 was the coldest December for Northern India in the past 119 years. It was really cold. My fingers and toes went numb and swell up. I could feel cold even under the quilt. But I am so glad that it’s not so cold today and I can walk on the terrace at night.

That is the view from my terrace right now. I just really love it. I actually love the winter season except these bitter cold 2-3 weeks.

Chana Soup [#26]

[09:23] I got my learner’s license yesterday. Yay! It was easy. That test. I had to get 6 questions correct out of 10. I got 8 of them correct. So, now I have got my L.L.

And on our way out we had this delicious Chana Soup right at the entrance. On a winter morning, It was a great pleasure to have that soup.

So, if you have a chance to visit Hisar district court, You must have that soup.

[09:57] It has been raining continuously since yesterday. I wonder why tthe St. Kabir’s School’s sports day has not been postponed. There has been a heavy hailstorm in parts of Rajasthan.

Exams are coming and I am crying [#24]

[14:11] It’s gonna be alright, I hope so. O hope so. i don’t wanna end up like guddu bhaiya. Which, reminds me that Aman bhaiya called me. He said that they were planning a Manali trip and they asked of I would like to go as well. But I can’t go bcos I’ve got these exams. But I ain’t studying. I don’t even have a book. I am such a fool. Book is not a thing that you can share. You gotta have your own book. I gave half of that book’s price to Hari. But he is always studying. So I never get it. That was the worst buy ever for me. Oh god, I don’t wanna fail. But I don’t know what to do. Guide me. I m sp depressed. I am never gonna get a life. So, I decided that I am gonna spend tge rest of my life in library. I might find some purpose. I am gonna explore all those books and then I will see if there is something for me.

Unknown Sorrow [#23]

There I go again feeling sad for no particular reason. I don’t even feel like watching anime. Well, Your Lie in april is not an anime you can binge. It’s just sad. And I know that she’s gonna die at the end just like arima’s mother and just like Sakura from “I want to eat your pancreas.” I am all about anime, aren’t I. Hey, Rick and Morty season 4 premiered today. It was good. So anyways, I am feeling sad and I don’t know why. Its the same feeling I used to have back in Kota. I don’t even know what is it. Is it loneliness? Will I ever find love. Is law of attraction really working? God please make my life worth living. Why do I have to feel like such a loser?

Toxic People [#22]

Yeah, So I am writing a post which means that I am feeling low because I only feel like posting when I am sad. So, what happened today is that after the class ended, Hari Sharma who is my roommate as well as classmate invited me for a game of Call of Duty and Jasleen who is one of my classmates was also there. He seems to be nice. But so does everyone at first. But most of them are not. So then when we started a game, Jasleen goes “Oh I got only 10% battery left. I could only play one game.” And Jasleen is not a hostler, he is a day scholar. So he has nowhere to go to. He will get bored now. So he wants Hari’s company and Hari always keeps me with him. I never saw it that way but maybe he thinks of me as his slave. So he is always angry whenever I refuse to go with him or leave him when I am getting bored. So after Jasleen’s battery is down. He took my phone from me and he was playing from my phone and I am sitting there like an idiot. And why was he playing instead of me because he is a better gamer. I am not very good at games and I don’t like to play games. So after playing some games, we went to play Badminton. That was fun but even there he was making fun of me. Well, now that I am thinking, he has always made me feel inferior. Although, even I think that I am a loser but I have met people who have made me feel positive once in a while. Everyone deserves a friend who makes you feel positive, who raises your spirits and not ones like Hari Sharma who makes you feel inferior, who uses you, who sees you as their slave. Hari is not a nice guy. I used to see him like a nice guy but he clearly isn’t and he is not someone I wanna hang out with anymore. I need to find better friends.

Am I mentally ill [#21]

[22:15] Feeling sad. I don’t know why but I am almost crying. I am holding back my tears. Sometimes I just feel sad for no reason. And I mostly write my diary when I am feeling low. I don’t know why but whenever I am sad I remember that I have a journal blog. So, I finished My Hero Academia Season 1 today. It’s a pretty good anime. That’s why the popularity I guess. But I don’t get the reason why SAO is popular. It’s no. 3 on Popularity on Myanimelist. Maybe I will find out if I continue watching it. I’ve only watched like 12 episodes and then I put it on hold as it got boring. And hey, I am also watching Dr. Stone which is just woooow. Desperately waiting for next episode releasing this Friday.

Also I am again thinking why do I speak so much. I talk too much. I cannot focus and I should be doing my homework right now and I am not. Why I cannot be normal. Why am I so… so … so… abnormal. Why do I always have to say something really really stupid? Sometimes it makes me wonder if I am whether I am mentally stable